IGNORANTHEART

Randomness of LOVE

 I have been reading a series of posts from someone here on tumblr. It’s sort of annoying but at the same time interesting. She actually is talking about series of downfalls specifically about love. Hahaha. I still don’t get it, why do some people act so stupid. They are so stupid. But it hurts though, that some people are constantly telling me that I have to experience falling in love, maybe, just maybe, I can as well understand that there is no STUPIDITY when it comes to love. The hell. haha. Am I cursed? Lately, I figured out  I actually own a HEART- an ignorant heart. So there goes the hurt. :( 

I have been absorbed by what my closest friend told me. If there is really something going on, if I am not just assuming things,if we both know how we feel, that what if you choose to let go? What if you choose to set love free? What if love is really a choice and not really a destiny? Well, I know that people create their own destinies but what if you started created a destiny with me but will choose to leave it undone? I think it will surely hurt. I know. I want to somehow know, but how will I know? 

GLUED PAGES=GLUED MEMORIES

 I saw that cute little notebook I have been keeping for a year now I think. It had been hidden for a year now as well. So I have been keeping you away from my thoughts for a year now, makes sense? Here’s the story…

I never thought of keeping a diary or a journal or whatever but I don’t know what made me think about writing down my memories of you — times when we talk about some serious shits of life. I planned to actually fill it out with just thoughts of you, JUST you. I looked forward to filling it out but sadly, I was just able to write on at least 5 pages of it I think. 

I picked it up and as I try to browse through it, I realized it was glued, the pages with some notes were all glued together. Then I remembered glue-ing the pages all up so I won’t be able to read things about you, so I won’t be able to remember some unsorted feelings about you, so I won’t remember you…

To YOU with LOVE

                                I trusted you. My mistake.

Maybe it doesn’t mean anything to you anymore, maybe it never did. But it meant a lot to me. And even if you forget, I will always remember even the saddest part of that story. You still wear that SMILE, the smile that once fooled me — sorry, it doesn’t work on me anymore. How many times did you promise to spare me some of your time. You always disappoint me. And for so many times, there’s these awkward moments when I walk by and see you, I remember everything from HOPES to FALSE HOPES. But see, you cant walk back in. Not now nor tomorrow, Not after I worked so hard to move on….